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Monday, October 22, 2012

This moment...

Kyle's phone alarm goes off at 5:00 a.m. signaling that the night has passed & a new day has dawned. He resets it for 5:30 & snuggles in close to me...

Kyle's phone alarm goes off at 5:30 signaling that another 30 minutes have passed & it is NOW time to REALLY get UP... He snuggles in close for just a few more minutes & then pulls himself from our warm bed.

A fresh, new day has embarked on this life, our life.
Tired? Yes.
Would love a little (or a lot) more sleep? Absolutely.

Kyle is now off to work.
The girls still sleep.
Crazy-busy weekend & both were feeling a little scratchy in the throat last night.
Essential oil diffuser & rest will do them good.

As I move about around the house this morning thinking about what this day, this week will hold, my mind becomes a stir. The Lord reminds me to refocus... On the here & now... This moment...


I pour me a hot cup of coffee that Kyle brewed... Just. For. Me. before he left.
I put last night's dishes in their appointed places...
I look around the kitchen...
I am reawakened to the reality of how blessed I am.

A heaping bowl of fresh fruit sitting on the kitchen table.
An unopened container of apple juice that MaKayla requested from the store.
Bananas neatly hanging from their rack.
Electricity.
Water.
Clothing.
Bible study books & The Book that clarifies it all.
Pens.
Paper.
A candle warmly burning.
Health.
Love...

A God who meets my every need from the smallest to the greatest.
A husband who works tirelessly to provide for our family.

A God who loves me in depths that I will never fully know until I see Him face-to-face.
A husband who loves me/our girls with no conditions.

A God who longs to commune & fellowship with me every moment of every day.
A husband who invests every free moment in the lives of MaKayla, Mal & I.

I look around & I am thankful.
I. Am. Blessed.
I. Am. Loved.
I. Am. Adored.
I. Am. Provided for.

The two most important relationships in my life are ones that complete me.
They make me who I am.
My Creator.
My husband.
They are my all-in-all.

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them! 
Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand.
Psalm 139:17-18
 
Look around you today...
Count your blessings...
Name them one-by-one...
Count your many blessings...
See what God has done...
 
 

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Plain & Simple...

It's a quiet, rainy morning here. The girls & I are all gathered around the kitchen table, each doing our own thing, yet blessedly in the comfort of one another's company. Mal, writing a report for school. MaKayla, working on her Bible Study. Myself, conversing with a sister-friend of mine via e-mail. In the midst of the messy, overflowing table sits a warm candle burning. My life & my heart are full to overflowing. Plain & simple.

Our days & weeks have continued to be quite busy, even to the point of needing to reschedule a "sew date" tomorrow. Disappointing? Absolutely. Freeing? For sure.

Through both the 'Fruit of the Spirit' study MaKayla, Mal & I are participating in on Sunday mornings & the study I am leading on Monday evenings, God has been repeatedly impressing on my heart the necessity of seeking out the Holy Spirit's filling, guidance & work in my life...DAILY. Seeking Him to fill & refill & fill some more. A fresh filling with each new day that I awake to. I'm sure I knew the importance of this, however I have been reminded distinctly through each of these studies that the only way I can live a fruitful, victorious & selfless life is to be refilled anew on a daily basis with the power & presence of the Holy Spirit. In & of myself I am a carnal body of flesh that seeks after my own desires yet through the filling of the Spirit, I am intimately connected to the One who created me & loves me most. And when I am intimately connected to Him on the deepest level, I am able to live out who He desires me to be. And as I live out who He desires me to be, He produces fruit through me. And as that fruit is produced, others are touched by Christ. The "others" being my family & those I am in contact with.

The more God deals with me & teaches me on this, the more I recognize the reality of His presence & control in my life. The more control He has, the less I think of self. The less I think of self, the more I am able to see the hearts & needs of others. The more I am able to see the hearts & needs of others, the more fruit He is able to pour out through me. The more fruit He pours out, the more others are being nurtured, affirmed, cared for, encouraged & comforted. The more others are being nurtured, affirmed, cared for, encouraged & comforted, the more God is glorified.

I feel abundantly blessed to be a vessel. A chosen vessel.

I pray that as I allow the Holy Spirit to fill me, others will see Jesus & in turn will have a deeper desire to know Him, to love Him, to serve Him. Even if the "others" are no one besides Kyle, MaKayla & Mal... ♥

Monday, October 15, 2012

Being reminded...

As I begin a new day I am reminded why I am here.
Why God has placed me here.
Why I am where I am.


He reminds me in this new day that first & foremost I was created for His pleasure.
To commune with Him.
To fellowship with Him.
To glorify Him.
~In my thoughts...
~In my words...
~In my actions...
~In my reactions...

He reminds me that He has very distinct purpose for me in this day.
Not only to please Him, but to make much of Him in the moments ahead.
For me, that is serving, honoring & nurturing those He has entrusted to me.
~In my thoughts...
~In my words...
~In my actions...
~In my reactions...


He reminds me that this doesn't "just happen".
It is only through the filling & the power of the Holy Spirit.
          "...be filled with the Spirit." Ephesians 5:18

He reminds me that I MUST be deliberate in petitioning that filling in my life.
It's God who does the filling, yet it's me who must do the asking.
If I fail to ask, seek, petition, will I be filled?
He longs for me to ask for that which He desires to give.

So today, I ask.
I want a fresh filling.
A filling that overflows.
Spilling from He to me.
From me to those I touch.
For it's only through the filling that the fruit can be ripe & ready.
Love.
Joy.
Peace.
Patience.
Kindness.
Goodness.
Faithfulness.
Gentleness.
Self-control.

And as I obey, the Spirit will produce nourishing fruit.
Through Him, it will be distributed to those whom I touch in this day.
It will be appropriated & those I touch will know it is Him.
They will see Him.
Feel Him.
Hear Him.
Be touched by Him.


He reminds me that I am His vessel today.
I am here to be poured out.
For the blessing of others.
For His honor & glory.
~In my thoughts...
~In my words...
~In my actions...
~In my reactions...

"...be filled with the Spirit." Ephesians 5:18
 
 

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

He Will Supply...

What a beautiful morning to walk Kyle out the door to his car as he prepared to leave for work. A cool brisk breeze. The twinkling of lingering stars. The brightness of a beautiful moon. The stillness of the night about to break into the light of morning.

Refreshing.
Exhilirating.
Renewing.
Just what I needed to start my new day.

I have come to the conclusion that unless I put "BLOG" on my "TO-DO" list, I just don't set aside the time to sit & write awhile. I am praying about designating a window of time every day to think, reflect & share but with the fullness of life in our home right now, I will wait patiently for the Lord to show me what His will is.

With everyone beyond tired the other night, we found ourselves in bed much earlier than normal. As is my nature, I carried along my Bible, journal & current studies/reads that I am enveloped in. Kyle & I chatted a bit & as he dozed off to sleep, I began to study. Awhile later he said, "Are you not tired?" Oh, I was, but to be honest, I don't want to miss a moment of the miracle of life around our home. I save my study time for when Kyle has left for work & before the girls arise, while they are gone fulfilling commitments or after everyone is in bed. When I am engaged in any project whether it is something I am creating or a study of God's Word, I can get quite cranky if I must get pulled away therefore it's best to do those things when everyone else is occupied. :) Kyle doesn't necessarily agree as he says I need to TAKE time for things I want & need to do... So after much discussion, we agree to disagree... ♥

The older I get, the more I LOVE to study. I think homeschooling the girls has done that to me. Growing up, I was a terrible student. I didn't study. I paid no attention to assignments or grades. I did just what was needed in order to "make it through". As the girls have grown throughout the years, the Lord has changed my desire from making sure they succeed & excel to cultivating their hearts. Instilling in them a LOVE for learning. Making sure their minds & their hearts are connected in that learning process. That learning & education aren't just things to get done... Things to muddle through... Things to accomplish... Yet it's a journey to enjoy. And through that process, the Lord has instilled in me a desire & a longing to learn of Him. To be taugh things I didn't know or have things I did know take on new meaning & perspective. Sometimes we can get so stale in our doctrines, beliefs & convictions that we are deaf-earred, blind-eyed, calloused-heart to the "new" that God desires to teach us. When that happens, we miss so much...

So as I continue on in the three studies I am enveloped in, I am grateful for what God is bringing ALIVE in my heart...
*who I see God as...
*what God expects/desires of me as a bride to Kyle...
*what LIVING the Fruit of the Spirit looks like...
*how God desires me to "see" difficult situations in life...
*the view He longs for me to have in the hard of life...
*what He desires me to do with what He is pouring in to me...
*to evaluate how His character is being displayed in my day-to-day life...
*to examine my life continuously, being mindful of what is present that shouldn't be...

Most of these things seem like elementary concepts yet God desires to constantly be turning the soil of our hearts so that new seed can be sown. So that new growth can spring forth. So that abundant fruit can be grown. So that His harvest will be plentiful.

The last three weeks have been overwhelming trying to "get on top of it all" yet His grace has been so satisfyingly sufficient.
It's pushing forward.
Persevering.
Leaning on His strength rather than my own.


In the midst of it all, He has shown me through His Spirit & through His Word that as we willingly receive that which He has entrusted to us, being good stewards & faithful grounds keepers, He will supply the ability & strength to accomplish that which He believes we can do. We base so much of what we accomplish on what we feel we are capable of rather than just focusing on that which He has placed into our care. Being diligent to put our hands to the plow knowing... He will NEVER ask more of us than His grace is sufficient to supply.

It's been a great learning season for me.
Not just in knowledge...
But in fully trusting God to give me the strength & ability.

As everyone left last night from our in-home Bible Study, Kyle & I just looked at each other & acknowledged how good & awesome God is. How faithful & provisional... How amazing & wonderful...

It's a joy to serve Him...
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In the back of the truck rides in the fall...
 
Caring for a rehabilitating puppy...

Bow shoots with Dad...

Perfectly BBQ'd grilled chicken...(by Kyle of course ♥)

What our living room floor typically looks like...

Sillyness between Grandma Sharon & Tuck...

Our new wall creation...
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The path of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn,
shining ever brighter till the full light of day.
Proverbs 4:18